It’s almost the end of November and this year will be over soon. Time seems to be flying. When I look back at this year I get mixed feelings.
This year has been in many ways trying. I found myself at that juncture where nothing seemed to make sense. I went through a lot of struggle mentally, to make peace with a lot of things happening in my life and it’s an on-going battle. There was this time when I was so discontent that I had this feeling of crawling out of my own skin. Then I slowly learnt to make peace with my circumstances. It’s definitely not an easy feat. I had to learn how to find the positives amidst everything that was going wrong and to hope when it was impossible to. This year in a way taught me that even when things are bleak I should never lose that small ray of hope and should hold onto it.
I made new friends and reconnected with estranged ones. Making new friends is indeed an amazing experience especially when they are the sort who fills you with positivity. I laughed a lot, I tried out new things and generally enjoyed the moments. Reconnecting with estranged friends is both bittersweet and joyful. At first there is this reflection as to what went wrong and how things turned so bad that it led to the friendship falling apart. Then there is the acknowledgement that both of us were wrong and forgiving each other and starting new. I think as we grow older our changed perspectives makes us more matured and helps us understand the other side better. It was amazing to reconnect and rebuild and it feels great.
I am thankful in so many ways for this year because even though the difficult times outweigh the good and happier times, I have a new appreciation for life. There are so many possibilities in front of me and so many things I want to accomplish that I am seeing ways to do all that. I am more courageous, open minded, brave, hopeful and patient than last year. I have learnt to accept that difficulties are part of life and that at the end of the storm there will be sunshine. I have grown closer to people who matter and know who values me. This year has brought about so many changes in me and I am happy and thankful.
I am looking forward to the newer experiences coming my way this year and exciting things in store for me next year. The biggest lesson I learnt is that nothing will work according to plans and sometimes its easier to just take one day at a time. So here’s to taking one day at a time and living life to the max…